I want to just escape from Chicago

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For Kwesi

*deep inhale. long sigh && a few blinks. clears throat*

So... he asked me to make him a blog, so this is what I'm doing :) :

I've been knowing him for 3 years. Well a little bit over 3 years. Chi-Town meets MIA !

But anyways :), he's like a freaking bro to me. when i talk to him, I just feel I should tell him every-single-thing. He's like a best friend/brother, so I tell him everything, even if he don't care && I hope he can tell me everything. He come for advice, I don't need advice :) I go to him just so he can listen && I don't want someone to tell me their side of the story, keep it to yourself Kwesi :). But I'm glad you do that. At least I know you're listening and everything. I call him Keith. I just love that name. So if i skip from Kwesi to Keith, then that's just my ADD kicking in :)

Yeah I did go out with him. It was like best friends-turned-boyfriend && girlfriend. I broke up with him ( haha ] && I wanted him back. but then he started dating this girl && *weird hand gestures*. It was crazy. We didn't talk for a year ( thanks a lot ]. But now we are && yay! Even if you say it's hard for you to keep conversation with me, because I grew up too fast, Keith, just know that you're still my Ride or Die. We're still best friends && I'lll tell you any.freaking.thing.I.want. :) no matter how weird it'll be. && u better tell me everything too :)

Okay this is getting weird && all ( i'm having a hard time blogging in dedication for someone ], but I love ya. I always will && don't forget that ♥♥♥♥♥ && a thousand hearts more.

xoxo, Marissa.

Legacy vs Ben-J

Okay so i'm watching this video on Youtube of the New Boyz && everything.

But like every single comment is either a negative one :-/ or people saying "Legacy is sooo sexy" / "Legacy is sooo fine" / "Legacy, Legacy". && I'm just like "...duh. there's Ben-J too"

Okay don't get me wrong, i like all types of boys, but Ben-J ( the dark one ] looks SO MUCH better than Legacy ( the light one ].

 ^^ that's legacy.. && here comes Ben-J :D

Come on now! Just look! Ben-J is adorable. Legacy is cute with the freckles && everything, but drop it. Ben-J is such a cutie :) Maybe it's just me, because I think some dark boys look 3x better than light boys. Some light boys look better && some dark look better && Ben-J looks better! Who's with me! haha :) 

... that's all. 

~ More Ben-J photos :) :

 

That's cuz your black. - the cookout

Alright so I'm just watching the cookout ( 2004 ), so that's why that's the title. I just got done hearing that line :]

So uhm... anyways... my friend did a parody of a Kid Cudi picture && i was like WHY CAN'T I DO THE SAME THING TOO?! :]

so uh... yeah! here ya go.

p.s. + i have major bags && i look weird :D but i learned to accept my flaws <3

Take 2:

stop LOL'n!

Omg. So im IMing my friend Joseph. i havent talked 2 this dude in months. 

Not surprised. If we talk, we'll talk for a day or a week && won't talk to each other in months.

Not that we dont like each other, its just cuz he live in the Virgin Islands && im all the way over here && yeah && yeah && yeah!

So he on webcam or w/e && being goofy. He on his bike just showin off && everything, so he takin 4ever 2 reply back && when he do he go " l0l ". im like What's funny?!

I'll have a long ass sentence && he'll say l0l. im like :-/ 

wat imma say to that?? i already put haha in the sentence

But dats the guy. We real cool. He just gotta keep the convo's goin b4 he bore me 2 sleep.

&& like my baby daddy/best friend Andre. He moved to Jamaica on me! && when i say sumthing he'll go

ROFL! ROFL! ROFL! LOL. LOL. LOL. && im like "it wasnt even...that funny.

*sigh* my babies. my babies. 

Random Blog. Stuff on Marissa's mind.

Okay this may be a lot ( probably not ]

#1.) They should legalize weed EVERYWHERE!! I never had it before, but i wanna try it at least ONCE! maybe.... but dang. People make weed seem so ....perfect. Like it's a semi-healthy solution to all your problems. They be all chilled && nonchalant about life. People say weed make food, sex, music, colors && tv 10x better. What.the.heck. Why is it even illegal but ciggs kill people everyday because of the nasty stuff in it && it's everywhere. U got Kryptonite, Chronic which makes u walk on clouds && they got Kool, Newport which makes u stink && ur livers go pitch black. Ew!!

#2.) I Am Legend is on!! kickass movie! ♫Na-Na-Na-Na-Na. Don't Worry. About a thing. Cuz every little thing. Is gonna be alright!♫ (<--Bob Marley, FTW. Weed smoking song lol ] ;; Will Smith is so hot. When he was The Fresh Prince, i wanted to be all over him like ink on paper! :)

#3.) I wanted to be a blood thirsty vampire a time in my life, but now that everyone wants to be one, i'm moving on to bigger && better things. Call me the venom drinking ninja :) Hi-Yah bitch! But now that I'm watching I Am Legend, a zombie seems cool. I mean except for the whole uglyness of them. They're probably like sex beast when they're alone ;-) && they move so rapidly. My goodness!

#4.) My freaking play brother/ex boyfriend ( long story! im not nasty like that, okay?? "Cut the President some slack" ] is still talking about he really really love me..... *blank face. blinks* I hope he mean the bro/sis way, cuz uh... if he still got feelings for me, imma have to aloof myself away from him. Treating my heart like a chattel. That's incongruous :) Ha-Ha! Thanks Ms. Ryan! ; But yeah. we broke up not too long ago ( last week. Thursday ] ... 1 reason was bcuz, i mean, i looked at him after i went out with him && im like This is like my big brother..gross... && another reason was bcuz me && my ex boyfriend kinda...made-out the day before :O ... it was hot! i'm sorry :) i don't regret it either.

#5.) Still watching I Am Legend! the parts when they flashback on when the city has to be evacuated is so sad. The lady && her baby couldn't go pass && they were crying. then the helicopter exploded && Robert's ( Will Smith ] wife & daughter blew up :'( Dang. && he was like RIGHT THERE too. "Daddy, look! A butterfly!" *cries* damn Marley!!!!! *bites bottom lip. sniffles*

#6.) I'm just a young romantic. I love love. I hate hate. I hate fake love. I love fake hate. Simple as that.

#7.) I'm coughing like crazy. So at school, don't yell at me. I got cough drops, but I doubt they're gonna work <3

#8) I'm tired!!!! && I miss Antonio....but i dont want to.......... :-/ fuck my life. fuck it in the ass..

lol Random, I told you. *deep voice* PEACE!!!

Hotel Motel Holiday Inn! Say if your girl start acting up, then u bring her friend! lol

iight don't ast about that Title lol. it's a long story

" A bag of weed! A bag of weed! You know everything's better with a bag of weed!"

( sorry..watching Family Guy ] ;; what was i gonna make this blog about?

Aw yeah! I uh..was on my friend's Mercedes blog && she renewed her playlist && she got almost every single song that I use to be like "HEYYYY NOWWW!!" "back in the day!"

She got Cudi ♥ ; Ginuwine ; Tony Toni Tone ( c'mon now!! ] ; Adele ; Maroon 5. she just did all types of music && i love it! that song Better that we break reminded me of this picture I customized && i said i was going to put it in this blog so uh..yeah!

Here goes lol

p.s. I was mad depressed when I made this pic. && that song make me cry too. *sniffles* i was -sings- So emotional!

p.p.s One of my nicknames is Sonic. so yup! 

you're so

How can a person go up to you && tell you how YOU'RE feeling?

I get that non-stop. They say "You're not in love. It's puppy love. It's teenage love"

Isn't that still love?? Have you noticed that the word love appeared three times ?

You're not me. You don't understand how I feel. I can tell you every simple thing about me && you will never fully undertstand me. Quit trying. How would you like it if i came up to you when you were head over hills about someone && i said "You're not in love; Get over it!"

Hurts right? Back the fuq off! 

got the virus.

So yesterday, I was feeling kinda sick.

Not really ( in the beginning ], only my throat && head hurt.

I took a few pills in 3rd period so it'll pass over, but I ended up being 

knocked out.

So when it comes to 4th period, I wasnt in the mood to even change into my gym uniform. 

We did our exercises && what-not, but then my stomach started hurtin like

mad crazy. So i lay down on the bleachers && outta nowhere I start

making these nasty noises like I'm havin an uncomfortable orgasm

or sumthing. When my G, Mona Lisa asked was I okay, 

I tried 2 answer her, but my throat hurt so badly, I bust out crying.

It felt like the Devil himself was tryna escape from my body. No jokes.

Me bestie Mercedes! :D brought me downstairs 2 the nurse 

&& i had a temp of 100.6 && had to go home.

The freakin nurse thought i was pregnant or sumthing.

Im like Why do everyone think i'm pregnant?!?

Its so aggravating. Sorry to crush ur hopes people, but I'm not. ;;

I got home like around 1:45 && i slept from that time until 10

&& The Green Mile was on. my body felt like it's been taking a few hits from a metal bat.

My nose felt broken, my arms were falling asleep && cramped up.

My stomach was doin flips && twists, my head felt like its been hit against the wall a few times. 

It was terrible. I was just feeling terrible. Moving was a challenge to God. Opening my mouth to cough

was a threat against my life. I felt like shit yesterday.

I took 1 NyQuil. I was suppose 2 take two, but the pills were huge

&& i got scared I was pushing it by taking 2.

The back of the box said excitability may occur && they was not lying.

the TV was speeding up && the room was spinning.

I thought I was dying last night.

U think i'm playing.

I ended up sleepin on the couch.

I woke up feeling a lil better,but my throat still hurt && I got mad hot/cold flashes. 

Pray for me y'all!

ugh!

I'm sorry but I can't stand country accents after a while..

I mean the ones that are way too strong.

The country bumpkin, redneck, down-in-the-dirty-south, straight-from-Texas's-ground, sprouting-like-a-cactus-in-San-Antonio-with-a-cowboy-on-my-arm accents!

his name is Mraz, watch me crush

Okay so i guess  you can say i discovered him last year ( thanks Riley ]

before he was a good person with good songs.

Now that i'm seriously listening to more songs && falling in love with more of his songs 

( Song for a friend ;; Butterfly ;; Life is Wonderful ;; A Beautiful Mess ] 

&& im actually seeing how awesome he is, i'm seriously crushing on this man.

i know he's in his 30s but wow! he is awesome. i love how creative he can be with his music.

he's so different. && he's  a vegan :]

but he got that inner freaky-ness of him ! ( Butterfly ]

he's so down-to-earth && he does good for the world.

he's so weird too ( he owns an avacado farm but knows nothing of avacados ]

there's more, but that's all i can dwell on. :]

..that's all. <3

p.s. he takes awesome pictures. it was 1 picture he took in a reflective window && the background was distorted && it looked so raw. i can't find it anymore though :(